I had a dream last night that was extremely freaky to me, and I'd like to know if you can help me interpret it. Here is what happened in the dream.
My fiance and I were in a library. We kept hearing bells in a room upstairs and as I am asking the librarian about them, I see my fiance with a book in his hand going up the stairs. The librarian and I follow him and he goes into a room with a light on at the top if the stairs with a lot of shelves of books. I am standing in the doorway to the room, and tell my fiance that I'll be right there and turn to speak to the librarian when the door starts to close by itself. I start to lightly push against it to stop it and it keeps shutting like someone is behind it pushing it closed. I start to put my foot in the door but something warns me that it would be crushed if I did, so I don't and the last thing I see as the door shuts, locks, and the light turns off is my fiance looking at me questioningly. The librarian tells me to open the door but I can't, and for some reason I don't dare to look at the window in the door and see what is happening in the darkened room or who or what might be looking back out at me. I woke up shivering with fear.
I've checked out a lot of dream dictionaries online, but for some reason I can get the main theme or meaning of this dream.
If you can help me it would be greatly appreciated. Thank you in advance,
Good morning, Cat.
A library is a place where knowledge is stored. One generally regards it as a public place, where calm and quiet rule. This is the setting of your dream - I would regard it as representing your memories.
Bells ring to get our attention. They can be alarm bells, or doorbells, but that's our primary purpose. The bell goes off upstairs, calling you to a "higher" knowledge.
Now, the room is in the library - your memory - and the bell is calling your attention to the place, but when you get there you can't enter. You never see the force closing the door, but your emotional reaction to that is, understandably, fear. It is quite likely that it is your own fear that is cutting you off from your fiance, so much so that you are too afraid to even get a foot in the door.
What this sounds like, to me, is that you feel that your fiance has an opportunity that you do not (perhaps an educational one), and which you fear may separate the two of you. The librarian - your reason - is telling you to open the door - essentially, that you should pursue the same route and not give up on the relationship - but you are unable to overcome your fear.
If any of this makes sense to you, then the best advice I can offer is to try to communicate your fears. Talking them out has a much better chance of overcoming any obstacles, than keeping them bottled inside.