Trying to Reach it

I was laying down. Feet faced North, head faced south against a wall to my left... it seemed cream, but hard to tell because it was dark in the room. I was stationary. I could move my arms and lean, but the rest of my body wouldn't move.

I saw in front of me a pole...about an inch in circumference. I tried reaching for it...and I felt this unknown energy surging through me that disabled me to reach any further. And than I realized I was in the dream...I was conscious! I could look around and see in front of me, but nothing else.

Then all of a sudden I heard something. It was like a sigh, a deep breath... and I realized it was myself breathing. I tested it out. I breathed in, and after 1 second in count I breathed in reality (like as I'm awake now reality)...and than I realized that I was out of my body...I rationally thought this.

I tried leaning over and grabbing the pole....but the energy was so strong....it was unbelievable strong. All of a sudden I felt rushes of energy pass by when I keeled over from exhaustion. I was paralyzed by this energy...I couldn't see it, but I knew it was there. It came from the right of me, but it was darker than in front of me. I struggled....I need to wake up, I need to wake up!

I started getting scared and wondered if I'd come back as I am know. I said loudly...In Jesus name, let me out, let me out in Jesus name....and then I was shushed by something....I don't know what it was...but I realized that Jesus' name wasn't the releaser. I stayed, laying down, looking over the covers in awe wondering what's going to happen...and then I heard something...a strange language....I couldn't understand it. It seemed almost Latin, but not so....then I remember looking up...and the pole was really high....and another voice said, after an image of a female came down partly and disappeared "they do this to impress one another"

What the poo does that mean, "they do this to impress one another"? And I was finally able to wake up.

Chad

Good morning, Chad.

What you experienced is called a mixed state of consciousness. Usually the demarcation between sleeping and waking is fairly clean. While asleep there is no conscious motor control but the mind is unaware of this, the only exception being the eyes (possibly because of the direct connection that the optic nerve has to the brain). So, you can dream that you're running, but the impulses never reach the legs.

One type of mixed consciousness is that experienced by sleepwalkers. During the REM phase of their sleep, these individuals retain motor control, and on some subconscious level are aware enough of their surroundings to navigate. Another is the lucid dream, in which the dreamer becomes aware that they are dreaming, and usually attempts to control the dream in some fashion.

But your experience was somewhat different. While it started out as a lucid dream, you proceeded from there to slip from sleep to full awareness - before regaining motor control (hence the paralysis). Because you were aware of not being able to move, this influenced your dream as well.

This can happen for a number of reasons, not all of which are known. If you are overly exhausted before going to sleep, then you can get this as you doze off. It can also be caused by oxygen deprivation due to apnea, which is a distinct possibility in your case, given the attention you pay to your breathing and because of the urgency you feel about waking up. A single occurrence is not really all that worrisome, but if this kind of thing happens to you repeatedly, you may want to get your doctor involved - sleep apnea affects millions and shouldn't be ignored.

All this is not to say that there's no message in your dream. There's a goal that should be within your grasp, but for some reason you are prevented from reaching for it. The form that this goal takes - a thin pole - could be seen as nearly anything and offers me no clue what your goal is. An "energy" prevents you from moving - this vague opponent indicates that you don't really know what your obstacles are. You are feeling as if your religion, or church, is not helping as it should, but help is available - but, since the source wasn't given a dream symbol, I can't say what it is.

The phrase "they do this to impress one another" is very intriguing. It seems as if the speaker is referring to you. At the time, you are praying for help, which could make the phrase another comment upon the relative usefulness (or rather, uselessness) of religion in your life.

Taken as a whole, it seems to me that you have recently become disillusioned with spirituality, but that it has previously played such a large part in your life that you don't know how to handle this void. This is a serious emotional issue which is often underrated - its effects are similar to losing a loved one. If this is what's happening to you, the best course is to confide in a trusted friend - someone who won't mind a lot of listening. In lieu of that, a professional counselor is the next best choice.

Pleasant dreams,

Peregrin