A few days later I won another award and one of my ex's (Kyle) was in the audience. When I tried to make my speech it all went wrong and every 'booed'. I was so humiliated I ran off the stage and Kyle followed me.
I don't know what winning two awards has to do with anything though.
Good morning, Laura.
Awards are recognition for our accomplishments, and they're something that makes us feel good about ourselves. While you feel perfectly fine most of the time, a failed relationship can make you feel so miserable that even your successes feel like failures.
Don't let it get to you. There are always two responsible parties in any relationship, whether it's a failure or a success.