God and His Horse

Dear Peregrin,

I was meeting with a very old man. I had never seen him before and we were sitting outside in a place that was very old and beautiful. The trees were big and old and hung over like they were trying to listen to our conversation. The old man had a kind face that I could only get small glimpses of and could never really see even though we were no more than 2 ft apart. He had white hair and long white robes on they were long and very clean. His aura seemed to glow a soft white hue faintly tinted by all the colours.

I don't remember what he was saying to me but I was asking if he was God. I remember only him smiling and then a white Horse sliding its face up beside mine. It was soft and he was very sweet. He was all white like the man and he nudged me I closed my eyes and rubbed his face as it pressed against mine. When I opened them the man and the horse were gone. Even though I was all alone I felt this amazing sense of calm and knowing that I had never had before. (not the dream).

My mother is an atheist, so I was never raised with an organized religion of any sort. In my childhood until now (early 20's) I have found and followed a pagan path choosing to somewhat reject the ideas of Christianity. My boyfriend is Catholic and the rest of my family is Christian or Anglican... I have recently been feeling lost, religiously, not knowing where my beliefs lie... I don't know if this dream is trying to tell me that I am on the right path, or that I am on the wrong path... or that maybe it was god in my dream... I have been feeling guilty for not believing in him or her the way that I should be (bible and whatnot) I believe there is a presence there always.

Kimberly