OK. Another wacky dream I had just last night. (I've been having trouble sleeping just a little bit lately.) OK, the basis of the dream encircled around a 8-9 page letter written on a 6" x 9" memo pad (don't ask how I know that). The letter started in pencil, but ended in blue pen, which was used to emphasize the architectural drawings (which I'll explain in a moment). The letter was handwritten to two women, as if they were the same person. It was a love letter that was from this guy I've gone out with just 2 or 3 times, but who has expressed a ton of affection for me in real life, but in the dream, he was duplicitous, and the hurt feelings that were brought on by my accidentally finding this lost letter were akin to how I actually feel in real life about my ex who recently broke up with me.
The letter was found in a back seat of a car where T- was. Everyone close to me, family, close friends, family friends, knew about the letter and its contents. The later part of the letter expressed that T- didn't care for me anymore, and was even going so far as to put me down physically in a sexual manner, and comparing me to the intended of this letter. It was cruel. The earlier part of the letter was T- bragging about his add-on plans to his cottage, where he intended on meeting these two women. They were sketched blue prints.
Later in the dream, my father ends up trying to give me the letter, but the last pages that had the parts about me were missing. My mom was alive in this dream, and said that she admired my bravery (I actually ran in my house where I grew up without my clothes on!). I wanted to avoid receiving the letter and/or being confronted by my father's knowledge of this letter, so I ran to my bedroom, and along the way, closed many large doors behind me. By the time I got to my room, I recalled the scandal and secrecy of the letter, and attempted to contact T- by phone (as I've done with my ex in real life, to little avail). I left him a message, and he realized somehow that he had accidentally left a clue behihnd that revealed his lies and secrecy.
The strangest thing about this dream is, in some ways, it parallels my anxieties about my ex, but instead, I used someone who's never hurt me to play his part. Why could that be?
Thanks!
Liz
Liz
